Doing this in English this time. Have a good practice, mom~ ;)
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A fair warning, this has lots of sappy and emotional stuff in it. If you want to skip it, just move over to the later bits. I'll bold out the place where you can start reading again. :P
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It's rather grey and rainy outside at the moment. My mood isn't anything as plain, though. Just recently I broke up with my boyfriend of two years. I just found myself at a point where his presence wasn't important anymore and when I thought about why I'd stay with him...I came up with nothing. Well, I got the 'I'd have a safe future and he'd be someone to snuggle up to', but other than that...not that important. Lost those romantic feelings for him, too. Though. This was also because another guy entered my life.
My mom said to me that she can't take seriously relationships that began online. My current boyfriend fell into the same group -- he didn't think that something like this was possible. Until he met me. :) We had been talking on a forum for a while. He seemed an interesting person since the beginning. At first I was slightly intimidated by him because he was different from others, so I held my distance. Eventually got over it and when someone on the forum started bullying him into getting a YIM account, I was all for it. The first convo was slightly awkward for me at first (nervous, yo), but that soon passed. We got talking and it often happened that I neglected my boyfriend at that time because of Chris.
I started noticing a few things that betrayed that he might have a thing for me. Acted ignorant towards it, though, because I was still another's girl. In any case, I was friends with him first (nothing happened when I was still in a relationship) and then developed feelings for him. Which is why it didn't seem fair to continue with the previous relationship. So, I called it quits. It wasn't an easy thing to do (because two years is pretty damn long time), but I did it. Was pretty sad and needed to talk to someone. Chris was my first choice.
So, we talked about everything and when I left to go for a walk in the evening, my eyes were puffy, but I had a smile on my face. I knew that it was a right move to make. Didn't get together with Chris until later, though. I had this constant thought in my head, 'I don't want others to think of him as a rebound', so I waited. And waited. Until one day I herded up all my courage and confronted him. Turns out, I had read the signs right after all. ^_^ Still wanted to wait. Because I was stuck in others' opinions and thoughts.
Then, however, I got to a point where I understood that it doesn't matter what others think. This is my life. I make my decisions. I live with my decisions. No one else has the right to tell me what to do or how to live. Sure, they are entitled to their opinions, but...while I may listen to them, I don't have to abide them. It's an awesome position to find oneself, I have to say. So, made it known on FaceBook, told my family and closest friends and my days of being single were short-lived. :P
My current object of affections is a truly great person. He's able to make me laugh, doesn't judge me for who I am, is very intelligent, supportive, loving, caring, protective, honest, trustworthy and like the typical male he falls asleep at the mention of shoes/clothes/shopping etc. :D I've never been able to open up to anyone like this, either. Took years of friendship to get to this point with my closest of friends where I am with Chris right now. :P He's a smoker, yes, but he promised to not smoke with me in the same room. :)
Since I got my package from home yesterday, I got my microphone, antenna (for the internet), cooler (for the laptop), a wire for recharging my camera's battery (that still doesn't work even though it is some very high tech thing) and almost a kilo worth of crisp rye bread. Because of the new mic, I was able to talk to him yesterday for the first time. The first was in the morning (when I had received/opened the package) and then again when I returned from the concert. So far, one of the greatest experiences I've ever had. 03
In general, things have been really hectic, crazy, confusing for me lately. Several things have popped up with my ex (he called our relationship 'convenient', for example; kind of made me think why the fuck did I stress over things pointlessly for so long :P) that have hurt me. Just...showed me that I had trusted and been with the completely wrong guy for so long. Hence, lesson learnt -- a guy may be nice with you, but you have to pay attention as to how he treats others to make out his true character. Which is why I know that things will be better with Chris. :)
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NON-SAPPY STUFF BELOW, YO. :D
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On the evening when I broke up with the previous boyfriend, I went to the park to write a letter for my dear friend at home. Yup, it was a snail mail. :D Was about two pages in length and it almost felt like I was talk to her even though she wasn't there. :) I don't know if she got it because she gave me her island!home address when she herself is far in the mainland. :P Hopefully it did reach her. :)
About a week or two ago, the nanny who was here before me popped by for a visit. It came as a huge surprise for me, but it turned out to be quite fun. :) Other than that prior to this week, I did go out every now and then (lovely evening walks after a long day and meet-ups with the other nannies), but mostly been working and dealing with relationship stuff and such.
My vacation started on the 15th October and I've had the place all to myself. Will have it for about four days more. :P Freedom is good. :3 Went out on the Saturday, had one of the nannies come over on Sunday, Monday was a lazy day with cleaning and a visit from a nanny, and yesterday...was just awesome. :P
Got my package in the morning, got to talk to Chris and went to a concert in the evening. It was my first bigger sort of a concert, so I was pretty excited about it. :P The warm-up singer was Raphael Saadiq. It was pretty sweet and he did warm up the crowd pretty well. After that there was an half an our worth of waiting for the main performer -- Lenny Kravitz. I haven't been a fan of his, but after seeing that show yesterday, I might as well become one. :D He had great contact with the audience and did his thing pretty well. Plus, the music was pretty awesome. :P He ended up being on the stage for almost two hours. Was definitely worth it. :P
Hum, what else?
Oh.
Did try with Pilates for a while, but didn't succeed too well. Lost the motivation pretty quickly. Worked out something else, though. I asked Chris for help in this and we worked out a plan. Minimum twice-thrice per week, minimum ten times per cycle (four full weeks). Each time I exercise, I tick off a line in the oh-so-colourful calendar I made, tell him as well and send him a pic-copy every now and then. :P My goal is to lose a bit of weight/strengthen muscles without becoming a body-builder and so far, so good. ^_^
Aaaaand that should be it for now. :) Hope you're doing well in there~ :)
M.
